being intoxicated is all i have ever known my whole life so what is new? well i was sober for over 8 months but i almost committed suicide at six months sober,. Staring down the barrel of a 12gauge shout gun is kind of a wake up in anybody’s world so get real and stop stressing out world. I have lived through what most people only read about in books and ,Yes i have several suicide attempts but I am still here alive and kicking. The craziest thing is I am better off not sober? My reason being is? I think too much about my past and how I couldn’t change it, that makes me feel helpless, and feel more like a victim than a survivor. So hit me up I am not going back to A.A. but i do know the ropes and what the consequences are.